One of the things I'm looking forward to most about having my child is the planning for the child will be over. When baby Fowler arrives, I will just be. I'll just be in the moment, and whatever was planned or was not planned won't matter anymore.
I know some of the planning I have brought on myself. My Type A personality just won't allow it any other way. I know my baby doesn't need the perfectly decorated nursery, but I want to have it for her. I know organizing the kitchen to make room for her stuff probably isn't all that imperative, but again it's still on my to do list. Then again, some of the planning is necessary. I do have to plan a way to pay the mortage and all the other bills while I'm out of work on leave. I do have to arrange daycare because there are no if ands or buts about it, I have to return to work on a date certain. And I do have to plan for certain work on my cases to be completed or at the very least arrange for someone to cover these tasks while I'm on leave because I have no desire to commit malpractice. But while most of my planning is a necessary evil, it has certainly added stress in my life that I just want to end.
This is not to say that when I have the baby I think my life will all of sudden become easier. I know it's going to be hard caring for the baby and losing sleep and managing all the other pitfalls that come with having a newborn, but I still can't wait for that day when I can just be in the moment; whatever that moment may bring me.
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